Why do people say sorry all the time? They say it even if they're not even wrong.

Why should I apologize? I'm not right, but I did nothing wrong.


They are so immature.

Photo Blog?

I went through all my pictures on my cellphone, and I figured I would send them to myself so I can delete them and make some room on my phone. Most of them are really old and some are fairly recent. They're in no particular order. I couldn't center them for some reason... Oh well.

I was standing on an old roof in Port Henry, looking over Lake Champlain watching a storm.






The 28 bags of hot dog buns Neala and I had to buy for Homecoming.... That was fun.
Explanatory.

Sky coaster with my cousin and sister.

At a friends house. I was bored. I really love this one.

More of Port Henry. A town of like, 500... My mom grew up here. Make sense?

Taylor and I were walking from Starbucks to the mall, and some idiot went over the curve... So funny.

My best friend on the train ride to Canada. He told me his complete life story. Not even kidding. He was a really nice guy, even if he was a tad weird.

Livi! She's cuter than I am.

2 summers ago, on the ferry leaving New York City, going back to Staten Island.

Some building leaving Buffalo. It looked cool. A lot of graffiti.

Krystal Meyers concert from forever ago... These pictures are awesome though, if I do say so myself.

The best.

Pretty good, eh?

I liked his boots.

Always be.

I'm only on until my mother remembers to block everything again... Maybe she'll forget?

Friends of mine and I are going to the movies this weekend. We've been planning to go to see this movie for a while, but we just found out it's rated R. Kind of a set back, but we're pretty sure we're going to go anyway and go movie hopping.
Do you think it's wrong to movie hop?

We are compelled to do what we have been forbidden.

Time passes...
Even when it seems impossible.
Even when each tick of the second hand aches like the pulse of blood behind a bruise.
It passes unevenly, in strange lurches and dragging lulls, but pass it does...
Even for me.

Hey all. Just wanted to let you know that I'm going to start blogging again... I'm currently updating everything that I haven't been able to get to while my parents had that parental control on.

Canada was fun.
Lift was interesting.
My cousins came here from Chicago for a week.
My Aunt was married.
I'm 16!
I have my permit!
I'm a Sophomore now. (10th grade)
School started Thursday. I have decent classes.
My sister is a freshman. It's weird seeing her in the school.
I'm over at Caroline's right now.
I'm extremely tired.
Cardboard Testimonies this weekend! Incredibly scary to get up on stage and do them.
YouTube 'Cardboard Testimonies' if you don't know what I'm talking about.
I'm getting a kitten tomorrow!

I hope you're caught up! Get off my back about blogging now, kay? =]

Playing my little part in something big.

I'm leaving tomorrow (that's if I finish packing) at the crack of dawn (7:45 baby ;) with the middle schoolers from my church. We're going to PA, and I'm not ecstatic about the cramped school bus ride there but once we get there and get situated I'll be ohkay. Supposedly there are about 60 kids...

I'm really looking forward to going. It's where everything started for me, two years ago almost to the day. Weird.

I'll be back on Friday...

Then off to Canadia!!

You're prettier than a sunrise.

This morning I decided to go for a run, and get back into shape for the fall. I don't know how I'm going to keep waking up at 5:30, but I'm going to give it a shot. After my run, I noticed the sunrise. The only time I ever see it, is on the bus ride to school. Pretty much never during the summer because I wake up at about 10:30 every day. So this was a treat, and I grabbed my camera and took some pictures!

Next week is camp, which I am pumped for. I can't wait. I'm hanging out with people tomorrow and we're going to see some fireworks in Clifton Park. Then Saturday I'm going shopping for any extra items for next week. Can you guess what I'm doing Sunday? Yep, packing. Fun!

Don't Say That It's Over.

It's funny. I never realized how much I used my cellphone before today.
It died last night, and my sister took the charger to her friends house. (We only have one, because she broke the other one... SO now she uses my charger.) Of course, today is one of those days where I want to make plans for the weekend.
I reached for my cellphone this morning... Behold! It was still dead. So I'm stuck waiting until she gets back. Now I have this stupid anxiety feeling in my stomach.


I could strangle her.

Temporary...

I wish I could say I'm actually spending my first few days of summer having fun, hanging out with friends, and being a teenager that is jobless and broke... But that isn't quite the case.
I've been stuck home, doing chores, and reading for lack of anything better to do. This is not by choice, mind you. The super glue on my glasses finally gave up 2 days ago, and I haven't really felt like going outside and doing stuff half blind. I can't watch tv, or be online for long periods of time without getting a headache. Okay, so it is my choice to stay home partially, but it still doesn't mean I'm having a blast rotting at home...

At least this is only temporary. I can't wait for July.

Fun!

I had the best weekend.

• Friday I went to Borders & Fridays with my mom. I finally bought some much needed books, and a few other things. It was nice.
  


• Saturday I finally mailed my passport. Note the finally part. I should get it in 2-3 weeks... Hopefully more around the 2 week point. (crossing fingers.) I'm happy though, that I sent it. I've been so stressed, and you know what happens when I do? I get zits and other unholy bumps on my face. Unfair!
  The rest of my day was spent with friends at the Great Escape for Glory day. I had so much fun.
  I Tanned. Got soaked in the lazy river. Competed who could keep their hands up in the air the longest on the Pirate Ship. Glasses breaking in the line for the Pirate Ship... Wedgies!!! =P Walmart for super glue and deodorant. Subway. Competed who could keep their hands up in the air the longest on the Comet. A lot of walking and pictures. Finally the Sky Coaster! Had to practically beg Carolines mom, but it was so worth it!
  When we left, we sang to a bunch of songs and stopped by A&W. Best root beer ever!
  


• Sunday was the Malta Celebration. The very last service in the Shops of Malta! (And my first Sunday service in over a year and a half!) Its sad to think about. I've spent the past 4 years there, and I have so memories. It was fun to reminisce with Caroline and Katie.
  After the service, the church held a huge picnic out on the new property. It didn't rain at ALL! How awesome is that? It was fun to hang out with everyone and watch the baptisms.
  

Today isn't going to be eventfull. Hopefully I can get my glasses properly fixed, so it doesn't look like I'm lopsided.
I have a few pictures on my Flickr. Check them out. =]

Ridiculous.

Isn't it annoying when you can't find anything to wear? Especially when the top you were going to wear is MISSING. I ponder who took it.

I'm laying in bed trying to come up with an outfit. I plan outfits according to how important the day is. Ask Caroline. She knows. I've had this planned out for days, laying on my bed. Yes, I know some of you just pick out stuff according to your mood, or whatever, but it's just not how I do things. Unbelievable, really. She better have a good reason for taking it... (No. Probably not.)

This was a really stupid idea.

Creamy.

Just a picture I snapped earlier. The clouds were amazing. It looks creamy, doesn't it? I kind of wish the lamp posts and the buildings weren't there. =P

Yep

I just bought the new Coldplay Album, Viva la Vida. Wholeheartedly telling you to buy it. (Or whatever it is you do.) It's amazing.

Tomorrow I'm going to the Great Escape for Glory Day with a bunch of my friends. It's going to be a blast. It's become a tradition of sorts for us to go, and I can't wait!!!

Oh yeah,

IT'S SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can't WAIT.

I love the Twilight series. They are easily the best books I've read. A few months from now, the 4th and final book Breaking Dawn is coming out on August 2nd. (Two days before my birthday.) The series is SO good, since all of the books have been #1 best sellers, they're making a movie of Twilight coming out in December. The teaser is... Interesting. I hope they don't screw it up!

Romance Languages.

As of now, I'm the biggest retard ever. I was having this conversation with a friend of mine, and supposedly Italian is not only a nationality, but a language?


********* (9:10:48 PM): except in italy
shanshann72 (9:11:36 PM): haha. are you going to live in italy?
********* (9:11:44 PM): lol
********* (9:11:54 PM): only if they all start speaking english
shanshann72 (9:12:09 PM): they don't speak english?
********* (9:12:14 PM): lol
shanshann72 (9:12:25 PM): ...
shanshann72 (9:12:28 PM): what do they speak?
********* (9:12:32 PM): italian
shanshann72 (9:12:46 PM): isnt that practically english? but with an accent or something?
********* (9:12:52 PM): haha
********* (9:13:02 PM): yeah, close enough, i guess
shanshann72 (9:13:24 PM): so do they speak english or not.
shanshann72 (9:13:24 PM): lol
********* (9:13:35 PM): that would be a no : )
shanshann72 (9:13:42 PM): im confused.
********* (9:14:42 PM): italian is not english at all... its more like spanish, i think
shanshann72 (9:16:33 PM): i always thought it was just a nationality
shanshann72 (9:16:37 PM): hahahaa
********* (9:16:44 PM): lol
********* (9:16:59 PM): i guess thats what a freshman education gives you
shanshann72 (9:17:20 PM): or a sheltered life.
shanshann72 (9:17:26 PM): VERY sheltered.
********* (9:17:28 PM): either way
********* (9:17:42 PM): and your not sheltered, I'M sheltered
********* (9:17:55 PM): atleast you have facebook
shanshann72 (9:18:36 PM): I've never watched a star wars movie until like, last year.
********* (9:18:57 PM): wow... i think i have episode 2 memorized
********* (9:21:35 PM): marathoning the extended edition lord of the rings movies is a fun time
shanshann72 (9:21:45 PM): haa
shanshann72 (9:21:46 PM): i bet
********* (9:22:00 PM): 10 hours straight of pure amazingness
********* (9:23:42 PM): not that im a nerd or anything
shanshann72 (9:23:46 PM): of course not.


I also have the coolest friends. Ever. =D

Stress?

I'm fairly nervous. I don't like finals. Or regents. I don't like either.
But on the bright side, regular classes are now over TODAY! Too bad finals start tomorrow.

Three 100 minute classes Thursday:

• English
• Global
• Gym

Three 100 minute classes Friday:

• French
• Keyboarding
• Earth Science

Two 100 minute classes Monday:

• AIS
• Math

My classes are nicely spaced, I think. Of course, I don't have finals in math and science. Just review because the regents are next Tuesday morning and Friday afternoon...

But I'm still nervous that I'll fail the regents and have to take the classes over again with Sweaty Armpits & Shepshep. *Cringes*

I Like Food.

The 30 Hour Famine was awesome! I had a great time. Except for the whole being hungry part. Living for Later played, and we mostly just hung out Friday. The majority stayed up till about 2:20-4:00 supposedly but I think that's wrong. Nobody really knows. We played catchphrase and we were hanging out in the sanctuary talking, while all of the adults except Mr. Straight went to bed at around 10.

Saturday we woke up at 8:30. That sucked. A hand full of us signed up to go to the City Mission to help. We had three options to choose from. It was either City Mission, Samuel's to paint, or staying at the church to clean. When we got there, it was incredibly hot and humid. We had to sign a waver, I think. I don't know why. Then we split up into two groups, and the group I was in had to do yard work and mulch. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be... I had pictured myself knee deep in mulch with flip flops on. I got some sun too. =] It was difficult to walk through their kitchen though. So much *good smelling* food!!!!!

After working for 3 and a half hours, we headed back to the church, only to head back out again. Only this time, it was to the mall for a scavenger hunt. We got into groups of 5, and we had to do the most ridiculous things ever. It was awesome. We got yelled at in Boscov's for going up and down the escalators (or...running up the down...and running down the up) too many times. Apparently they called the very scary mall cops, but I didn't see any.

We finally broke the fast after the 5:00 service ended. It was the best tasting food ever. I love pasta. I have pictures of the weekend on my flickr, so check them out. =]


{Wednesday classes end.
Thursday finals start. End on next Monday.
Next Tuesday & Friday are Regents.}
Summer!!!! (&& Glory Day ;)

Be Hungry.

Tonight, (or should I say today?) is the start of the 30 hour famine. Basically it's an international event where various church youth groups fast for 30 straight hours to raise money for the thousands of kids who go hungry everyday. I know the church has done this before maybe 3 years ago, but I didn't for whatever reason.

I haven't eaten anything since lunch ended at 11:20 and it is now 4:45, and I'm pretty hungry. I'm actually fasting just a tad longer than 30 hours, because of my lunch schedule. It's incredibly early than other peoples. What sucked was when I got home, my mom made my sister and I some food, and I was like, Yay!...crap. Hopefully this will get easier with people fasting with me. =P

I'm going to try and blog through it, but I'm not entirely sure how well it's going to work out. I know we're going to Samuels in the morning tomorrow, then going to a soup kitchen later. We're breaking the fast after the first service on Saturday, which ends at 6 I believe... Oh. I should probably go pack.

Less than 26 hours to go!

Life

My So-Called Problem.

I'm pretty sure my life is hitting a low point right now. I'm being crunched for time. Once I get past the 20th, I'm free. (Practically) Hopefully I get a job soon, because I want to drive sometime this century.

Anyway, I keep getting these stupid letters saying something similar to this:

Just wanted to let you know, your idiot child is in jeopardy of failing the entire course. Because he/she is in jeopardy of failing, we've taken the liberty to sign your child up for a speaking proficiency exam at the end of the year so that he/she gets a better grade. Or... so that we look better. Feel free to yell at your child and be pissed off with no end in sight.

It's for french. This has happened once before about a month ago. I went to my guidance counselor, and he said it's impossible that I can fail the course. I've gotten B's in that class all 3 quarters. No possible way, period. Then, sometime last week, I got my iPod taken away for the entire day in French for checking the weather for a friend. What the heck. Then, it gets better. One of the vice principals decided to call and inform my parents that if I get it taken away again, I'll get suspended. I'm telling you, my french teacher has it out for me.

Aside from that, I think I'm going to play field hockey in the fall. I went to an info meeting during activity period, (complete waste of the few remaining, by the way), and I'm definitely considering doing it. I have no idea how to play, though. Mary is going to attempt to teach me, but I'm still sort of uneasy about that. It's a tad safer than rugby, that's for sure. Apparently it isn't. I just found that out. Great.

I got 6:39 on the mile, second to a 6:38. My best time ever running the mile for school. I feel pretty good about it. I do feel bad, though, for Mary. She threw up on the last 200m. It was kind of discusting... I went with her to the nurse. It sucks for us because we have lunch right before gym. It's hard to run with a full stomach.

I'm going to go to bed. Hopefully my weekend won't blow up in my face anymore.

Behind Your Eyes.

I've traveled the world twice over,
Met the famous; saints and sinners,
Poets and artists, kings and queens,
Old stars and hopeful beginners,
I've been where no-one's been before,
Learned secrets from writers and cooks
All with one library ticket
To the wonderful world of books.
-Anon

I love books. I love how they take me from this world, to a completely different one. I love how I can read for hours till no end, fall asleep, then wake up only to read again. I love how I get so connected with the characters, I feel the emotions they feel. I don't, and I doubt I will ever, understand why people don't like reading. They would rather see the movie. I have hardly ever heard anyone say that the movie was better than the book. You imagine for yourself what the characters look like, what they sound like. Imagining their world behind your eyes.

I'm kind of a bookworm. I read whenever and I read whatever I can get my hands on. It comes from my mom, she reads probably more than me. Since I read a lot, I've come up with the "short and to the point" version of some books that have stood out to me. A few of them are typical for a teenage girl... While some maybe not so much.

• Harry Potter - I started reading this series in like, 3rd grade. I went to the library in my elementary school, and for whatever reason, I picked up Harry Potter. Not the first one, the third one. The Prisoner of Azkaban. I was hooked, even though I was out of order. I went back and read up to the fourth one. I patiently waited years for the fifth, the sixth, and finally the seventh to come out last year. I can thank J.K. Rowling, because it was this series that got me wanting to read.

• To Kill a Mockingbird - I know, some of you are like, "What is that girl on?" But if you actually took the time to read it and do the review sheets for English, not copy the answers from a friend or online, you would see it how I see it. Quite possibly my favorite part of the book was the last few chapters. I almost cried. =P
  
  

• The Chronicles of Narnia - I love the adventures. It's amazing how C.S. Lewis imagined and breathed life into these stories. I've read all of the books, but my favorite of these are tied between the Magicians Nephew, the Voyage of the Dawn Treader, and the Last Battle. I can't pick just one. The world between worlds concept is pretty interesting to think about, if you take the time. Then the adventures in the Dawn Treader are pretty awesome.. I haven't read any of his other books, but I want to.
  
  

• The Twilight Series - Yeah, some people think it's racy. The back of one of the books do seem to imply that it is... But it really isn't. (Most of the time...=p It's a Young Adult book, what can I say?) It's completely out of context with the entirety of the plot. It's much better than I ever thought it was going to be. I've read, reread, and re reread those books so many times. The final book, Breaking Dawn, is coming out on August 2nd. (Two days before my birthday!!!!!) The Twilight movie is coming out in December. Caroline, Alicia and I are seeing it together. I can't wait to see how it turns out!

Ready?

I've been getting into a bad habit of blogging. Blog somewhat steady, then taking like 5 days to blog again. Bad habit.

• I saw The 2nd Narnia on Friday with a group of friends. It wasn't as good as I had hoped, especially since the reviews that I had heard from friends raved about it. I liked the 1st better. It was lengthy... The best part I thought, was the ending. I also am never eating a hot dog again in public with people watching me. The stupid thing got stuck in my braces, and I couldn't get it out of my mouth... I was laughing too hard. It wasn't even a normal sized hot dog. It was a mini one, smaller than my iPod. Talk about embarrassing...
  
  
• I have to take Drivers ed, and that costs like, 350 dollars, and I want a car, and my parents won't let me get one unless I pay for half of the insurance. That means a job. I was getting an application at Hannaford, and I went to the customer service area, and this really hot guy was working there. Somewhere around the age of 16 or 17 or something. Super cute. I'm definitely working at customer service. ;]
  
  
• I went through iTunes yesterday, and I found Time to Pretend by MGMT. I swear I've heard that song somewhere before. I can't remember where for the life of me. I really like it. Has anyone heard any good music lately, because I need some...

Tomorrow is a fun filled day of cleaning around the house with my family... Shoot me now?

Awkward.

WOW. David Archuleta lost.

Kind of upset.

No comments for you people that are going to rub it in my face. Suck it, James. =P

Re-decor.

That would be the Clifton Park campus sanctuary... With some redecorating going on for the big move with Malta. The ceiling is being spray painted with some special chemical in it. I found a whole bunch of it on the production booth Sunday morning. It's black (obviously) and it feels like really fine dirt or sand. The nastiest stuff to get on your skin and/or clothes...

Speaking of redecorating, I went shopping with a friend of mine the other day, and I finally bought a cover for my iPod! About time, I know. Most of them were really ugly... It took me forever to find one I really liked. I also bought The Host by Stephenie Meyers. I finished it. It's a pretty good book. I didn't think it was nearly as good as her Twilight series though. (Next book coming out August 2nd!! Two days before my birthday!) I have to reread it though. There are so many details in that book, my head was hurting.

I have my Global (Social Studies) final tomorrow. DBQs are always fun... I can't wait until school is over!! =] Three weeks left of classes. Four weeks if you count finals and regents. I'm scared that I won't pass the regents. That I'll have to repeat the class and/or go to summer school. Scary! I want summer.

Tonight is Part One of the finale for American Idol!!!!!! We all know who I'm rooting for. By the way, I heard that one of the judges, Paula Abdul is singing tonight. Does anyone even listen to (or like) her anymore...?

TV Shows.

Has anyone seen or heard anything about House or American Idol lately, or am I the only one? These just happen to be my two favorite shows right now, and they just happen to be on 3 of the 5 days a week that I actually watch TV! (Except for the news... Shut up, I do watch news.) This next week is both of their season finales, and I'm pumped!

Yes, I still am in love with David Archuleta. Yes, I still think he's adorable. No, I don't think he's too young. I like both of them, but David A. had me the first time I heard him. =] By the way, has anyone seen him standing next to David Cook? He's so tiny compared to him! Either David C. is humongous, or David A. just hasn't hit his growth spurt. Who do you want to win?

House... is just crazy. The past episode was the best one I've ever seen. Seriously, did anyone see it? What did you think of it? I have high expectations for the finale! I hope she doesn't die, it would kill Wilson... Yeah, I get into it. =]

Irregular...

I've been busy with school, cut me some slack. I can't blog when I have a ton of homework and tests to study for... ha ha, right.

• I got my cyst removed on Tuesday. I don't really like it when doctors say, "This shouldn't hurt at all," when it really hurts like hell. Maybe I have low tolerance of pain or something. The orthopedics was across from a social security place, and on the other side of the orthopedics was another government building, and practically the entire side of it all windows. It was kind of cool since they reflected like mirrors, but I couldn't see inside. Makes you wonder what goes on in those buildings...
  
  
• My braces don't hurt anymore! This is a very good thing. I can eat anything. Anything except apples. I can't bite down on apples without sheer pain. I also now have to put up with everything I eat getting stuck in them... Gross.
  
  
• Track is over! No more taking the bus home/to a friends house and feeling guilty about it. I thought I had a pretty decent season overall. I am going to go to a gym that opened near by and *try* to stay somewhat in decent shape...
  
  
• New cellphone charger... But only one. If you know my sister and I, we don't taking sharing too well. It's very... difficult. She always takes it, and doesn't give it back. I have to take it when my battery is beeping at me to charge it, because I always forget to get it. I, of course, am a different story. I always give it to her whenever she needs it, being the loving sister that I am...

Besides the fact that I am still currently jobless and broke (hopefully that will change soon enough) those are my updates. Today is half day, so I'm stuck home. Anyone doing anything interesting? =]

Mothers Day!

My teeth hurt. A lot. I know, take an Advil or something, right? Too bad I have the worst time taking pills. I absolutely hate pills and liquid medicine. I think medicine is disgusting and I can't swallow anything. I pretty much suffer through anything.

Anyway, Mothers Day is tomorrow as most of you know. I decided to do something a little different. Anyone that knows my mom knows that she loves flowers and colorful trees. Friday I went around and took pictures of flowers that are in her garden (and other places) and some blooming trees that are around our house. I'm giving them to her so she can have them as a screen saver or desktop or something for her work. She'll probably want to print some out too. Oh yeah, and a card.

I put most of the pictures on my flickr, but here are some.